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Came back yesterday but I was too lazy to blog.

It was a good trip but two days were wasted. Shopping wasn’t that satisfactory. But actually things there aren’t exactly cheap. So it’s not that big a loss.

As usual, it felt like I went home. It’s so peaceful and being in my grandparents’ malacca home felt so cosy. It’s where I used to play and run about. A neighbour whom I used to talk to wanted to see me 🙂 I don’t remember who this auntie is but i remembered playing with her in my backyard. It was nice 🙂

I met my great grandma. She’s already 89. She lives alone and for most of the time, she is alone. It makes me wonder how she stands it. Maybe she’s used to it. Or maybe she just spends her days recalling moments in the 89 years that seems too long a time ago.

I feel insecure doing nothing. The A level period haven’t wore off i think. I just think that there should be something for me to do 😦

I wish you would be here to tell me to stop worrying.

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Today I had fun.

But not everything went well. I am worried.

But what’s the point.

Have to leave for malaysia tmr.

Do you know how much I’m going to miss you? I hope you’re reading my blog.

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Friendships do become stale.

I love my little cousin. She’s so cute 🙂

It’s quite a happy day 🙂

And I miss you so.

Day 3

It’s so frustrating to be waiting for something to resolve itself. I WANT TO GO TO MALAYSIA WITH NO WORK BURDEN ARGHHHHHHHHH.

On the bright side, I had the best time skyping today. It’s funny how easily my mood changes when he’s there.

My cousin is throwing tantrums so often. It’s frustrating.

Thank you for making me happy 🙂

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Writing day 2 on day 3 is weird. The wedding last night murdered me and I couldn’t stay awake to do anything.

It was a fun wedding. If you’re like a friend or a colleague there, you’ll enjoy it more than a family member (me). It was fun nonetheless 🙂

I hate makeup. It makes me look old and I have to remove it argh 😦

I made two resolutions today. Feels good.

It’s not supposed to be so hard.

 

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I guess it’s back to the countdown. Just like I did in the past.

Hanoi was incredible. Especially for me since I was with the person I love. Now I’m not with him and it feels empty.

I feel like I have to be stronger. I need the strength to believe in what I have always believed in and to continue doing what I should be doing. I feel like I’m carrying everything on my own. I feel like I’m falling.

At least I have friends to make my days go by happily and family members to love me, even though they make me mad at times.

Don’t be too far from me. You give me strength.

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What do you do when your whole world crumbles around you?

Do you sit and do nothing, waiting for time to pass or does life keep moving?

Ten years later you’ll know the answer but for now, you live it.

You just do.

Please don’t leave me out of your life. Not now.

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I can’t believe how horrid my day is. But it got slightly better when I met Jingying and went back to NJ and met some people that I’ve missed (:

And now I came home to slack all the way, only to await another horrible day tmr.

I wish it’ll get better. I really wish so.

Your email cheered me up you know (:

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Today is a wonderful Sunday even though what I did was to stay home and enjoy videos. And do some work stuff of course. When you start working, any relaxing weekend is like a gift from the heavens.

It’s not that I hate teaching. I love it. It’s actually fun. But the hard part comes with the observing of lessons and the meetings. And I think I won’t be taking science in uni anymore. It’s just not really my type of thing. I prefer teaching English so much more. Or maybe I won’t even take up teaching anymore.

I really don’t know. I’m just going to take it slowly now. One day at a time. Starting tmr. A horrifying monday with a terrible timetable.

I miss you come back..

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I’m just going to enter one post for my Friday and Saturday. Since it’s mainly about playing with my little cousin, using my com and doing work stuff. The highlight is my cousin of course (:

I rmb on Friday I was so excited since it’s quite a relaxing day and I can go see my little cousin after school. Plus it’s the weekend (: I can’t believe it’s all over now and I have only Sunday left.

My little cousin is fun to play with now but incredibly hard to manage. She keeps turning and turning. But she’s still cute and she likes me so I’m happy (:

Baby baby where are you ❤